First a complete history of my victimization, then a letter to my former pastor, and a summary including what good came out of it all.  John Kitchin, NZ9F.

The Gesu Story (for an explanation of Gnosis, see NZ9F.com/Gnosis.)

When the Masons, Protestants, and Mormons put me out of business by unjustly convicting me as a "scapegoat" to protect their people who really were criminals in Milwaukee's heating and air conditioning industry, they used a Media Blitz to bias any jury I might receive, also losing me all my friends.  Gnosis was used so heavily upon me that I developed mental problems, saw a psychiatrist who made everything worse, and at trial the use of gnosis was so extreme that I could not even think straight, much less properly advise my lawyer.

It has often been said that most people would have committed suicide.  I didn't.  I was crushed to discover that the news media is corrupt and mostly lies, but I still believed in God.  I sought comfort in religion, joining the Gesu Church Choir at the Roman Catholic Church on the campus of Marquette University, Milwaukee, Wisconsin.  What a mistake!

I auditioned for the choir, showing them my rich Baritone voice.  I had played piano, and so could already read music.  I attended many choir practices, sometimes 5 a week, performed free in public shows, and sang the 6 choir Masses each week, going to Communion at all of them!  Nobody warned me about that.

Gesu was reeling from a scandal where Paster Doug Leonhart became replaced with a new priest, Andy Alexander, who had a beard.  He openly dated women, and even visited the choir at my invitation, which no pastor had ever done.  Good public speaker, good liturgist especially baptisms, and well-liked.

Despite the choir, or perhaps due to the choir, I was having sexual and emotional problems.  Some of the same difficulties that happened when I had been charged with crimes I did not commit, years earlier.  Some members of the choir thought I was gnostic, being educated and well-groomed, so they either gave to me or took from me a huge amount of love.  Since I was swallowing a huge amount of eucharist, that was easy.  It was a roller-coaster, though, and my psychiatrist thought I might be bipolar (manicdepressive).  As it turns out, Gesu was overloaded with gnostics because of being on a university campus.  And, their eucharist was both over-powerful and over-crowded.  In time, it made me quite crazy.

Ultimately, Pastor Andy had a talk with me about my craziness, thinking I might be high on drugs.  When he found out that I was not gnostic, he sent me to an abusive psychiatrist to cover things up.  On probation from the unjust conviction years earlier, I had to comply or be sent back to prison.  He needed to cover up the fact that his church had severely and extremely victimized a member of its choir.  I was even hypnotized sufficiently by the eucharist and prescribed drugs that I brought $145,000 into the choir loft, and lost it.  I also forgot all about it.

I knew that the church, and especially the choir and Pastoral Council, were a huge sex club.  I did not know why or how, but I knew that everyone was having sex with everyone else.  I did not know that Andy had been sent to Gesu to put a stop to that.

His psychiatrist prescribed anti-memory drugs, and now I know why.  He was trying to keep my Genetic Memory from coming out.  That did not work.  Choir Director John Weissrock, who had a sexual relationship with a cat, had his hands full one feast day, perhaps Easter (Christian Passover) or Christmas.  Enormous liturgy, he had his hands full with passing out sheet music, turning pages, adjusting microphone volume levels, and playing his huge pipe organ at the same time.  I stood at First Tenor position in the choir, so I could be seen by everyone, and helped him direct. 

I prescribed the beat, keeping time for the singers, musicians, and even the hundreds of Jesuit priests up at the altar.  All eyes on me, the focal point of the liturgy.  Since there were spiritual heavyweights wall-to-wall in an enormous church, focusing on me, that jolted my Genetic Memory.  You see, my DNA was never in food or eucharist consumed by them, but I had consumed a huge amount of their DNA for years.  The process does work in reverse.  Their love flowed to me.  Massively.

I started to remember "past lives" and how gnosis and ministry work.  Trying to make sense out of it all, as it was gradual, I played around with a scavenger hunt.  I found an empty box that altar breads (hosts) come in, and into that box I placed a new and unopened condom.  I knew that had something to do with what was going on, but I did not know what.  Honestly.  I took the box into Andy's office to ask him, and he had me arrested on a Probation Hold.  Back to prison.

Andy had had me arrested quite often, as he was trying to prove that I was crazy, stubborn, something like that.  Anything he said got believed by the police.  He got believed by the news media, too, and had a Front Page News article written about me, called "Mentally Ill Cause Problems For Churches", by Marie Rhode, Milwaukee Journal-Sentinel, June 10, 1990, Metro-Milwaukee section.  Not one word of it was true.  It said I was throwing fruit at the altar.  Any friends I had were quickly lost.  People believe what they read in the newspaper.  The affections of my family were lost, too.  This sort of thing is why Rev. Andy Alexander, S.J., warrants being chewed out in public.

I ended up fighting in court, only to be arrested on a Probation Violation each and every time I made a court appearance.  Along about this time I learned that I could be cured or at least treated for my emotional problems if I could manage to get into the eucharist, even at a different church.  I went back to the only 2 other churches I ever attended in my lifetime, Blessed Sacrament (grade school) and St. Aloysius (as a baby, baptism).  Aloysius told me they could use me in their choir.

I sung there a year, and they knew I was gnostic, so they had me explain gnosis to any new person who was to be added to the eucharist.  Myself, however, they did not permit to participate in that.  Ultimately, I was insulted and left.  What I knew then about gnosis was only 5% of what I know now. 

Still looking for participation, I joined an Ancient Pagan Church of the Gnostic Brotherhood.  The Bishop immediately recognized me as a religious victim.  However, instead of shunning religion, as most people do when victimized, I wanted to become a minister and help straighten out the church business.  So, at a major meeting of clergy, I was unanimously elected Bishop, 208-0.  They explained to me that the primary function of clergy supervisors is to prevent the public from becoming victimized, and who better to do that than a religion victim.  Sort of like the crime victim who becomes District Attorney.

This was the consolation prize, of course, as everyone present knew that what I all went through could not be survived, long term.  So, is the loss of myself and what I might have become a great loss?  What about my 30 years of suffering followed by 20 years of partial recovery?  I am not as bad off as I thought, but still under 1% of what I should have been.

The real kicker, for good or bad, and believe it or not, is that this whole ordeal angered a group of UFO aliens (Atlanteans), who risked their lives and landed to talk to me in rural Wisconsin.  That is an extreme violation of both their laws and our own.  I watched the Mormon Men Of Black (MOB) investigate and clean up the following day.  Lots more that I cannot say.

So, are the Catholics going to kill me?  They would anger 65 million Ancient Pagans, all of them gnostic and well-positioned undercover in society.  Might start a whole new religion.  I do not care about that, but do not want it to drag the Gnostic Brotherhood into the mud with the other religious mafias.  I am proud to represent the one religious "mafia" with ethics!  (for a discussion of the religious mafia groups, see Gnosis Page, NZ9F.com/Gnosis.)

I am not the only victim, either.  John Tulley, their religious education minister, ended up in a mental hospital over what was done to him, and he was their employee!

My judgement in this matter is that the Jewish Kabal, Mason Knights Templar, Roman Catholic Church, and Latter Day Saints pay one billion dollars in Criminal Restitution.  You refuse?  Okay, but my best bet is that the GB will tear your guts out.  Anyway, whatever money I get always goes to feed and clothe poor people and starving families, anyway.  I do not even feel pleasure from money anymore nor what it can buy.  Just makes things easier to do.  I would give myself a nice vacation, but that is along the lines of recovery, not greed, and recovery buys more ability to be effective.

I am not ordering anyone to do anything, but I have ordered parents to explain gnosis to their children before they enter the First Grade.  This will minimize the number of people who suffer my fate.

As for the homeless, Gnosis causes ALL homelessness.  I cover that on Gnosis Page and in the February 2012 edition of the San Diego Homeless News, NZ9F.com/SDHN.  It is befitting that I should be homeless, and fits right in.  I served 16 years as Chairman of GB before becoming homeless for 4 years now.  Anybody know what that means?  Take a guess.  I am not the only prophet out there, you know.  You need to have somebody else tell you, not me.

I understand the public being out of touch, but why are the gnostics also out of touch?  Has stupidity become our national pastime?  John Kitchin, NZ9F, Chairman of the Gnostic Brotherhood.

This is written to Rev. Andrew Alexander, S.J., former pastor of Gesu Church, Milwaukee, Wisconsin, on the campus of Marquette University.  It speaks of my becoming a serious victim of religious abuse there.

Andy, it's been 22 years since you and John Kitchin at the choir of Gesu Church.  You thought my "craziness" had something to do with dope, but it did not.  It was all eucharist, although the problem was only exacerbated by Gesu's powerful eucharist, and not caused by it.  Causation goes back to Catholic Grade School, and daily Mass for 8 years, ages 6 to 13.  This caused extreme ADD (Attention Deficit Disorder) making me particularly sensitive to DNA.  It also ruined my life, and I am getting treatment for it to this day.

I never suspected that Margi Peterson might be in a lesbian relationship, as she spoke so well about wanting a husband.  Credit her with being a good liar, key to any ministry.  You were the one who taught me that no one in the profession believes in God, an important lesson to learn, when you told me that I was welcome at your church (near the end of the whole debacle) and then told a judge the opposite, under oath.

You had a real problem with me, as I could not at that age and with my extreme intelligence be brought into the Gnostic Brotherhood, especially at a church with far too many gnostics.  The question I ask myself is if I could have done any better, because if not, then I have no right to lecture you.  I think so.  Here is an even better and more productive question:

How do we keep people from becoming extremely well-educated and intelligent, plus also knowing nothing about gnosis?  People like myself put an end to that stuff as a secret, because we need to expose the lies of society, and that is the best starting-point.  It does lead to the Cynic Philosophy being correct, however.  So a pastor lies in order to get people to have children, thus damning more poor souls to Hell which we call Earth.  My opinion?  No, reality that we all try to avoid.

Involving my mother was not a particularly good move, and could have gotten you hurt at that time.  Other than that, all of the "violent scenarios" are and were, as you know, ridiculous.  I was so sheltered by my gullible and not-very-bright mom that I never even realized that the news media was lies and a scam until they started telling lies about me.  And, of course, the moment I objected to it all being untrue, I got "accused" of the "crime" of being mentally ill, and thus not seeing it clearly.  Gee, that would actually be a lot better than the truth.  All of these things happened before I ever entered Gesu, but eventually the entire corrupt and nightmarish structure of society became exposed.  You actually helped, but also helped instill enough anger and resolve in me that you created a major problem for society itself.  And also for me?  Could have been handled a lot better, even by me, knowing what I know now.

You learned by the experience, but getting back to the relevant question, how do we keep this sort of thing from happening?  Society cannot survive in its present form with real many gnostic victims out there.  It becomes in our best interests to be the whistle-blowers, even to the extent of explaining gnosis and corruption to everyone, in a believable way.  And, to de-fuse the eucharistic hyper-gnosis (hypnosis) to the hypnotized.

What should you have done?  Obviously you needed to explain gnosis.  The huge problem is that all sorts of other things would have come out, and at age 37, having been convicted unjustly of felonies and losing a million-dollar company merely because gnosis was used extremely abusively upon me to do so, well, that is probably terminal (suicide).  A lot of other things I knew about, such as the choir and church being a big sex-club, and I even knew about the anti-eavesdropping device you activated in your office.  I have installed those.

Clarence, an investigator for LDS (the Mormons) was using a listening device, and you thought I was using dope and wanted to protect me from knowledge like that getting out.  So, thank you, but I was not using dope.  I often used a very small amount of alcohol, continuously, to minimize the effect of eucharistics, and even cocaine has been therapeutic.  I learned of cocaine while studying psychopharmacology, the psychology of drugs that are psychotropic, at UWM.  Both drugs are potentially highly addictive (alcohol and cocaine) so the dose level is critical.

Your primary incorrect behaviors as Pastor of Gesu were to not explain gnosis when your church victimized a member of its choir using same, and then trying to cover it up with the involvement of my hypnotized and brainwashed mother, lies told to enlist the cooperation of the corrupt side of the Mental Health system, and, of course, your crowning glory, the involvement of the corrupt press and Marie Rhode of the Milwaukee Journal Sentinel, in her article containing no truth whatsoever and making me look like a basket-case.  Nice work, fuck-head!  You were a reign of terror!  (Local News section, front page, June 10, 1990, "Mentally ill cause problems for churches."  Behavior like that warrants you being chewed out in public by a Bishop, and that be me, nowadays.

What would I have done?  Well, I would have had a better evaluation of the situation.  Your intel was abysmal.  None of it correct.  If you have a bunch of gnostics at your disposal, it is not that difficult to assign them to tasks in return for their participation.  What I did is to join an all-gnostic religion, so that is no problem anymore.

The only thing more evil than the Whore-of-Babylon Roman Catholic Church is perhaps the Baptists, Jehovah's Witnesses, or Latter-Day-Saints.  Truly Satan in action!  In all fairness, however, it should be you, and not me, that lives on a sidewalk in San Diego.  I could have had a better life if my parents were not so stupid, and without people like yourself causing that to happen.  Holier than thou?  Much obvious.  The good that came out of it all is that I got angry enough to lobby the news media and make the priest pedophilia scandal hit the news.

Summary, including the good things resulting:

It took me 22 years to recover from Andy and Gesu, but I was pretty damaged before I ever met them due to the Catholic Church feeding me a huge amount of "Holy" Cummunion for years.  Gesu merely made that damage worse, plus refused to help repair it, and instead intentionally made it worse, nearly making me a real nut-case.  The church was a sex club, the choir even worse, and the Choir Director was having an affair with a cat.  They did have their hands full, because of the presence of Marquette University, and the excessive knowledge of Gnosis (how blood and semen are added to food in order to benefit those who it belongs to).

When excessive eucharist victimizes a member of the choir who knows nothing about the process, it becomes the duty of that church to straighten it out.  Instead, the use of gnosis was used abusively in order to intentionally create mental illness, in an attempt to cover up the abuses which were rampant.  In addition, a crooked psychiatrist was used, under threat of jail for not cooperating, to intentionally prescribe medications to increase the eucharistically-induced mental illness.  Even the family of the victim, myself, was told lies about what was going on.  There were failed attempts at commiting me to a mental hospital as well.

Gesu repeatedly had me thrown into jail, disrupting my life, for no other reason than it wanted me to obey anything it demanded and shut up about the abuses.  The apogee of the abuse occurred when Gesu had a completely false and slanderous newspaper article printed on the Front Page (Metro Section) of the Milwaukee Journal-Sentinel, claiming that I did such ridiculous things as throwing fruit at the altar, a complete lie and fabrication.  I was made a scapegoat for the many things that were going on at a whorehouse that pretended to be a church.

The good things which also resulted are that I got so angry that I helped write and publish news articles about the unrelated Priest Pedophilia problem of the Catholic Church, lobbying the news media for years, and that the victimization process at Gesu made me quite gnostic.  The Masons offered me a job as a jailhouse snitch within their Courthouse Group in Milwaukee, which I turned down as too demeaning and beneath my station in life, because of how they had previously victimized me (see NZ9F.com/Masons). I got befriended by a group of UFO aliens as well. 

The victimization at Gesu also resulted in my going into ministry, becoming elected a bishop in Ancient Paganism, and I even have a marvelous web page on "God's Holiest Sacrament" of Abortion.  Always credit those whose horrific behavior also results in good.  Some of this is the legacy of Pastor Andy, who, for example, taught me that no minister believes in God.  Important thing to learn.

John Kitchin, NZ9F